
Someone said to me the other day,
"So have you found that you are doing all the things you said you wouldn't do with parenting Zoe?" For example, I was really against the attachment parenting/wearing your baby stuff and was especially against using a dummy. Now I'm not against the wearing your baby in a sling or front pack everywhere, but I'm just not interested in all that back breaking work. I'm not a clingy person, plus! I never got around to buying a sling or front pack (which is silly cos a front pack would be awesome and I have needed one recently!). But I understand it really works for some mothers and keeps them sane and happy - so more power to them.
J and I had talked about it and didn't want a dummy anywhere near our kid, but when Zoe arrived we soon learned that she was a 'sucker' and needed that extra soothing to get herself to sleep when she was overtired or grumpy. It has also been useful when out and about in the buggy when we want her to sleep - and also to stretch her feed out if she wakes early from a nap. But now I have found that I am using it more and more and I can't help but feel really guilty? Like it is taboo, or that it's wrong.
So many older people seem to frown upon the use of dummies and as The Baby Whisperer said on Good Morning the other day "Some older people just don't like the look of them in their grandchildren's mouths" (or something like that). So many people have said to me "Oh my kids never needed a dummy" or "you aren't using a dummy are you?" - as I'm standing there holding one to Zoe's mouth...
Ok so this parenting thing is fine, and J and I get to decide what happens with Zoe, and we decided that the dummy works and keeps us sane - but why do I feel like I am doing something really wrong? Someone also asked me;
"Do you find yourself almost apologising when putting the dummy in when around others?" and yes! I do! This guilt that I have felt out and about has now made me a bit of a basket case every time I resort to the dummy at home. I leave Zoe's room thinking, oh crap, she might get addicted to that thing, I may be creating a big mission down the road when we have to wean her off it! I can't even put the dummy in in my own house without feeling like a poor parent or feeling some sort of guilt for resorting to this method of soothing my child.
I guess I feel like I am taking the easy way out - that I should be rocking her to sleep, wearing her around the house or letting her cry for ages. Ya know? putting in the hard yards... Help!